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A Conversation Between Two Angels

Angel 1: Do you see that lady? Her innocence was stolen many years ago. demoralized. devalued.

Angel 2: Her spirit seems crushed, shaken quieted.

Angel 1: At the time of that tragic event, from that point forward the lens through which she looked through would never be the same. A distortion. Her self- worth she had none. She believed it was taken from her.

Angel 2: It breaks my heart, if only she could understand.

Angel 1: In her distorted view, she liked the attention. She liked the approval. So she stayed there. Quiet. She let it happen. She detested the physical parts, and she could feel anxiety welling up, Oh she felt guilt and shame. Now she was in a loop. Worthless.
Her value and worth now rested on getting that high of approval, praise, and attention.

Angel 2: I see. So….more approval, means more value. More attention, means more worth. More praise, means more love. So distorted.

Angel 1: She was lied to. Her value isn’t in any one of those things. Her worth is not determined by the way she looks or how she acts or performs or what she allows people to do to her or believe about her.
But this is the lie she has struggled with none the less.

Angel 2: I see and now the goal is to prove and sell herself. Prove that she isn’t worthless am I right?

Angel 1: Exactly. If she only knew that she was thought of way before her conception. She was named with a special name. She is the apple of his eye.

Angel 2: She is precious in his sight more precious than all the jewels. She is beautifully and wonderfully made, created in his image. She is the daughter of the King. He loves her with an everlasting love.

Angel 1: Yes! He chose her. He died for her. If she only knew this value in the depths of her being.

Angel 2: Oh how she needs to know how special she is to our Lord and this is what wholly matters.

Angel 1: Yes she is so special to Him and yes that’s her real value.

 

This perspective on my life I believe the Lord gave me a couple of days ago. Without going into too many details, I will disclose what that tragic event was. I was sexually abused by a teacher in middle school years ago. I say this not to get pity, but maybe it can be a help to others. God can take even a heinous experience as that and he can use it for good and His glory. God works all things together for good for those who are called according to his purposes. I am quite sure God will use my experience to speak hope and life to others either facing the same thing or similar things.

God can take the good, bad and the ugly, and use it for His good. It’s so wonderful to know that truth. We all have a memory problem so we have to remind ourselves of his promises.

Blessings,

Johanna

 

12 Replies to “A Conversation Between Two Angels”

  2. How courageous of you, Johanna, to share this with us all. I am happy for you that God has given you the insight you shared here as well. That insight can change your life. xo You are so correct in how those kinds of horrible experiences cause one to believe less of themselves. It is the lie of the enemy come to rob and destroy. It is far too easy to think that God values us less too when such an incident happens, but that is not so. You are precious and treasured by God, and you always will be. You are also not alone. I too have been there once, when I was about five years old. BUT GOD is full of mercy and tenderness, and He surely has done great things for me in spite of the enemies attempts to rob from me. We are more than conquerors through Christ who strengthens, heals, delivers and sanctifies us all. He will restore tenfold what the enemy has stolen! May you feel God’s embrace as you go through each day. Let your light shine, sister. Hugs, Debbie 🙂

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    1. Thank you Debbie for your encouraging and edifying words. It is a great support to hear from other sisters and brothers in Christ. I’m saddened that you experienced something tragic when you were little, but like you said God does great things inspite of the enemy’s attempts to rob us.
      God loves you so much too Debbie.
      I love you too. Hugs. 🙂

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  3. Oh Bev, I hate to hear that happened to you. Thank you so much for sharing your insight and experience. It helps me so much. more than I can say.
    This thing happens way too often.
    I testified in court when I was 16. He was on trial for raping his own daughter. He was put in prison and then probably about 7-8 years ago he got out. I actually saw him at a five guys burger joint working. It was unnerving. I couldn’t believe it.
    Love you so much and thank you for sharing your experience and how you have coped with it.

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  4. Oh my goodness, Johanna! I dont have any words. Thank you for sharing your story. Wow. What a testimony to God’s love and how he has done amazing things inside you through Jesus. It breaks my heart that happened to you and does to many other girls and then they fall into the deception and cycle you said. Awful. But God’s love is great. And so is his justice. Wow, you’re an awesome creation of our Lord! Seriously, God’s done some amazing things in you! I’ve thought something similar of conversations between angels when they see us trapped and deceived. I love how you wrote that out. Thank you for sharing this, Bless you!! 🙂

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    1. Thank you so much for your words of encouragement. It blessed me. I know God is working in and through all of it. I’m not sure why that came to me, but I feel that God did give me that perspective. God has really been doing some house cleaning with me and it’s been painful, but good at the same time.
      I have been praying for God to work on me. Well he is doing just that.
      Blessings to you too.

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  5. Johanna that is truly an amazing testimony, you are a wonderful creation in Christ. Thank you for being so transparent. I’m sorry you had to go through that, I’m grateful that the Lord has given you peace. God bless you

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